I re-read my last few posts, it made me feel crappy. I feel as if I do not appreciate my bundle of awesomeness that is Sidekick and that is the last thing I want.

Hubby and I tried for a long time to get pregnant, we were investigating adoption convinced that a biological baby wasn’t going to happen for us. Then it happened and Sidekick is here and she is my world and yet I complain because she doesn’t fit the ‘this is what your baby should be doing’ plan.

So I’m going to stop.

Oh I know there will be times when I will wish things were easier, that is human nature after all, but I’m going to try and shift my focus.

What do I mean?

Well I always say Sidekick fights sleep, now I’m going to view it differently, I’m going to say ‘Sidekick finds it hard to relax into sleep’. Oh I know I’m saying the same thing, but by saying ‘fight’ it makes it sound like Sidekick is consciously working against me and she isn’t capable of doing that, seriously her brain isn’t mature enough to do it.

So I’m going to try and be more positive.

Maybe it’s because we are nearing six months and I figure we’ve got this far together. Maybe I am coming to terms with the fact that despite everything I do Sidekick sleeps how she wants to sleep, she wants a lot of one on one contact for a reason, those toys sure they will keep her calm for about ten minutes but what she really loves is playing with me or her daddy, watching and touching our faces, what’s so bad about that?

Time is so fleeting I don’t want to waste it trying to get Sidekick to be someone she isn’t.

So here I go trying to be more positive,

The pen is mightier than the sword, why not say something

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